The Gift of Time

The Gift of Time

Recently I reached my one year milestone battling brain cancer. Part of my journey consisted of a total of seven MRIs this year. The MRI this month seemed strangely different. It was as if I was becoming a numb robot following the doctor’s orders. I was going through the motions hoping for good news then I would share it with family and friends so everyone could be happy till the next MRI in three months. The news of a clean MRI brought me relief—not joy. I was slowly detaching myself this routine, because I knew with each clean MRI it would bring me closer to the day when I get the news that the tumor has grown back.

Darkness crept in with feelings of shame and depression. How could I hear such wonderful news and yet my heart wasn’t able to process it? Because I allowed fear to come in and steal my joy.

With tears streaming down my face I prayed for forgiveness, I asked to feel joy and see His glory. I asked God to show me what I missed when I received His gift of a clean MRI. His response was, “The Gift of Time”. At that moment I was flooded with joy as the fear rapidly fled from my heart. I felt secure in His sovereignty.

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1 John 5:14-15(ESV)
14 And this is the confidence that we have toward him, that if we ask anything according to his will he hears us. 15 And if we know that he hears us in whatever we ask, we know that we have the requests that we have asked of him.

This “Gift of Time” isn’t to be measured by quantity but by quality. To much is given, much is required. As the days draw closer to Christmas my heart steers away from the quantity of gifts that will soon be under the tree. My heart is focused on the quality of our time spent together on Christmas. God isn’t concerned about my attention to details of what I think makes a perfect Christmas. Offering myself wholeheartedly to the ones I love is what He wants.

James 1:17 (NLT)
Whatever is good and perfect is a gift coming down to us from God our Father, who created all the lights in the heavens. He never changes or casts a shifting shadow.

Looking ahead to 2015 I sense God using this precious “The Gift of Time” to help my family and I grow closer together in Christ. By showing us what it means to be good stewards of our time together. Through much prayer, discussions with my family and the Brave Girls, I have decided to step down from the Brave Girl Community in 2015. If there comes a time when God puts it on my heart to write, the Brave Girls have graciously left the door open for me to come in as a guest writer. I have truly cherished my time with all you in 2014.

Shelly

4 Comments

  1. Shelly what a beautiful gift. God is faithful. You continue to be in my prayers for good health and quality time with your family. I will miss hearing from you but so admire your choice to give your family the selfless gift of time. God bless you.

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    • Kelly,
      God has crossed our paths in this life for His purpose & glory. We are so many miles apart from each other but with prayer and the Holy Spirit all those miles disappear. May the Christmas Season bring you and your family joyful blessings that overflow with rejoicing praises to the Almighty King!

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  2. That Shelley was very moving. And the script is very moving. I love you so much. I cried when I read it. Love you.

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    • Todd,
      God speaks through His Word! I’m so grateful to hear the scriptures did just that. May God’s Word fill your heart and bring you to a deeper understanding and a relationship with Christ.

      “The Gift of Time” also includes you in my life. God wants me to focus on being a wife and a mother but also a sister that would honor and glorify Him.

      Love,
      Sis

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