though I consider myself to be a fairly good driver, it happened to me today. We’ve owned our van for almost exactly four years. We’ve put about 45,000 miles on it since we purchased it used and we plan to stretch it as long as we can, potentially another 55,000 miles.
Today while pulling away from the drive-thru banking station, I was jarred and startled by the jarring.
To my dismay, when I pulled away from the teller’s window, I must have not gone far enough forward before turning.
And? The damage when I got out and looked was far greater than I’d anticipated. I expected some streaking on the paint, perhaps.
I must have been close enough that I scraped for a foot before the car’s structure actually buckled and dented. The total blue paint streak on my sparkling white minivan extends for three feet. And? When I opened the sliding door on that side, I noticed that hidden in the door closure is a bit of a buckle that caused the paint to crack.
The paint is cracked in several places.
Which, in our winter climate will allow moisture in underneath that paint and cause rust if not sealed now.
Mostly I’m just frustrated with myself. I’ve never had a problem before, and this time that it happened was not just a teeny bump but a good-sized dent. The door has a bit of a pop when you open it now, you have to pull a little bit harder.
In life, we hit bumps. They catch us off guard, and we minimize our expectation of damage. When we stop and look, it can be overwhelming to see what has truly happened! And, when it seems that nobody is at fault, we can be left reeling with our emotion, wanting somebody else to blame, somewhere to focus our pain, our hurt, our frustration.
“Then Jesus said, “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you. Let me teach you, because I am humble and gentle at heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy to bear, and the burden I give you is light.” Matthew 11:28-30 (NLT)
Will you join me in giving up your frustrations and things beyond your control to God? Truly, nobody was harmed, and though my van now has a dent that I anticipate we will keep, (bodywork is not in the budget with a kitchen remodel on the horizon) it will still take us where we need it to.
I may not look the same leaving this world. I will have dents on my heart where I turned on my own from God’s leading, too early, when I needed to go straight for longer—scrapes from getting too close to somebody that wounded me, but God doesn’t throw us out. He sees inside our hearts, where it really counts. He will never trade you in on a newer model, because He knows your true worth actually increases with time!
“And I am certain that God, who began the good work within you, will continue his work until it is finally finished on the day when Christ Jesus returns.” Philippians 1:6 (NLT)