Frozen-a story of Unforgiveness

Frozen-a story of Unforgiveness

“Search me, O God, and know my heart;
    test me and know my anxious thoughts.
 Point out anything in me that offends you,
    and lead me along the path of everlasting life.

Psalm 139:23-24 NLT
And, verse 24 reads “And see if there be any hurtful way in me” (NAS)

It’s said that “hurting people hurt people”.
This is true, even if you are silent in your pain, you can cause pain to others.

This is a difficult post to write.
It’s raw, real, and very ugly.

We try to present our best to people, fearing what they’ll do if they see us at our worst, but my personal blog is titled “Sincerity and Hope“. So, I will be sincere and at the same time I have hope that God is working in me—and that my transparency will somehow cause others to experience freedom in Him.
This blog is on the “Brave Girl Community”. I sure hope this helps somebody, because I don’t feel particularly brave typing this.

A simple Disney movie that my daughters love (“Frozen”) has really brought a lot of truth into my mind lately. Hans Christian Andersen’s original story of “The Snow Queen” has a lot of Biblical truth, if you have time to look it up.
I am personally feeling God cleaning house. I’ve been upset over the way I was treated by a friend.

Facebook has put me in touch with people I haven’t seen for years. A friend asked me for forgiveness after years of harboring feelings of pain, bitterness and unforgiveness.

But, so much time had passed between my original offense and her apology, that it created a wound in my heart—while she felt healing. Due to the pain in my heart from a missed opportunity for reconciliation, I spent too much time thinking on it.
Truly? I was unaware of the pain I had caused her, and had it been brought to me immediately, I would have tried to right it then.
Faced with it now, all I could see was that my “friend” had been false with me. It stung and I reacted bitterly.

When, through recent events, I realized I had been guilty of the same offense, I initially wanted to confess my wrong to her for letting it go for so long.

After discussing the situation with my husband, we both concluded that it would wound her the way I’d been wounded. If a person wrongs you, and you do not let them know they have hurt you, you fail to give them a chance to right that wrong.
I believe this is part of the admonition in Ephesians that states, “Do not let the sun go down on your anger.”
Therefore each of you must put off falsehood and speak truthfully to his neighbor, for we are all members of one body. “In your anger do not sin”: Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry, and do not give the devil a foothold.
Ephesians 4:25-27

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I can recall a time in college where a “friend” began acting cold and distant toward me. I asked her if I had done something wrong. “Well, if you don’t know, then I’m certainly not going to tell you!” For a peacemaker like myself, that was pretty hard to hear. It was evident that she did not desire peace.
In other situations, especially in our digital age when communication lacks inflection, words can be misinterpreted and “read into”. I am so thankful for persons who have asked for clarification on my words in the last few years. Immediately I have been able to clarify my intent and explain what I said!

There is also another factor. The “in your head” factor. Maybe you’re still bitter at them, or jealous, or anything you want to insert here.
Jesus taught that our ugly thoughts are just as sinful as our actions, and that is true. But, if you never spoke to the person about it and they are blissfully unaware, then you can actually cause great pain by “asking them for forgiveness”. They asked forgiveness and you granted it. You’ve been smiling and friendly and yet inside, there is something else going on. It’s all in your head. Telling them won’t help them. It will hurt them!

If all the offense and wrestling has been in my head, then I need to get it out of my head. Write my apologetic letter, pour out my soul, and then ceremonially tear it up, or burn it, but let it go. That person is at peace with me now, and there would be a great wound caused by knowing I had harbored anger without giving a chance for reconciliation.

Unforgiveness is ugly and can destroy all that is beautiful.

Do you have unforgiveness in your heart?
Is your heart frozen?

Only an act of love can melt a frozen heart.
It may take sacrifice.

Your pride, most definitely, needs to go.
Let love take its place!
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4 Comments

  1. Great wisdom here…confessing our sins one to the other…brings forgiveness in our hearts and healing to our relationships. Thanks for sharing with such sincerity the hope you have in Jesus.

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    • Kelly,
      what a dear you are. Truly it is a blessing to have you here sharing from your heart as well! I thank you for your sincerity as you walk together with us.
      love,
      Tammy

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  2. So true Tammy, so true. Bitterness grows if we allow it and it is better to let go.

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    • Aunt Sarah,
      thank you so much for taking the time not only to read, but to give feedback.
      This is a lesson not easily learned and I hope never to forget it. And yet, it crept up on me almost unaware, as the pain was real, I didn’t even notice that it was turning into bitterness!
      I love you!
      ~Tammy

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